My Blah Blah Blog!!!

My bestfriends are thousands of miles away… So I have nowhere to vent…

So I decided to let my thoughts out in my blog…

At the moment I feel like Im in a midlife crisis…

I mean Im still young but I have the experience of a fifty year old!!!

3 hubbies and 3 kids…

Don’t get me wrong… Im happy where I am right now..

But I cant say I’m content…

Actually I feel stuck…

For you people who don’t know me…

I’m used to working… Hard working.. most of all I’m used to getting a fat check every 2 weeks… and I’m used to working for an above average pay…

Now, I’m a 24 hr house mom… No paycheck and no life… And here I am starting over applying at low paying jobs…

Friends can you imagine me as a cashier??? or even a janitor??? food preparing?? (I AM DYING!!!)

Dreams… My dreams are getting cloudy… where just a year ago were at my fingertips…

When will I finally be content and happy??? Its either I’m content and lonely/sad… or I’m happy and overwhelmed with drama… wishing for something else…

Is there an in between????

I feel that I’m falling more and more in love… And the more that I try to stop falling… I fall deeper…

-Can you stop loving someone? When You say I’ll always love you what does it mean? You’ll always love me in that moment and not tomorrow?

-You said there is always another day.. And that so are so many in forever.. I will love you forever and a day.. So let us be together now and see what tomorrow brings.. I will keep you with me for as long as its possible. If tomorrow you wake up and dont want me.. I shall cry and let you leave with my heart..

I once loved with my soul’s passion

And believed in Love’s confusion

And I’ve cried oceans and seas

And gave the Lord my love pleas…

Love was my addiction

It was also my conviction

I loved without hesitating, and too strong

Even if it didn’t fit, It was so wrong

But the the feeling always seemed to last

Through I tried to hide it in my past.

To love your friend is normal

But to love the way I did was criminal

The pain subsides through the years

As the new day dries my tears

The sun will rise someday in my heart

But it’s dark as long as we’re apart…

(PS I love still love you)

BY: Rhonda Lynn

       05/05/05

Hello friends… this is for all the music writers… Can you teach me how to do background music for songs?

Bale the songs r written… lyrics n tune.. pero wala pa beats ko background instuments nga… hehe…

Gamit ko Fruity Loop but its driving me fruity din… I can’t figure out how to record the beats.. ang voice lang na get ko… hehehe

Sige hah!! Thank u tudo2x to who ever can help me… hay….

TSUP!!! and Mwuah, Mwuah pa!!! hehehe

-Kikay

Hay.. Ka dugay wala ako na blog no? Na decide ko mag open a new blog.. Kay na tamad nako sa isa ko ka blog.. itsa all in the past..

I’m still the same… Kilig trip.. Love to love and be loved… Hay.. In love with love…

Dereon’s now 1 & 1/2yr old And Derrrick will be 2 in August… Ka dasig lang ah…

Things that are new since last year??? Umm… Addik na ko sa car ko… as in.. I started installing lights and Monday I installed a $800 sound system in it… Next week Im going to get stobe lights on the speakes and throughout the whole car… Hehe.. Bangin blue baby! TSUP! Enough about my car..

Um I started composing songs… I got fruity loop and the beats ready but I cant figure out how to record them yet.. LOL.. Ka ilinit gid.. If anyone knows of any other software please tell me.. Something thats easy to use..

Ummm… What else… Daw gaga gaga ko gyapon.. baba wala prenu.. hehe.. hay.. waay ko kabalo anu na e sulat ko…

I’ll try to write some poems for u guys… But kulang ko inspiration… tell me ur situation and I’ll try to make a poem for you.. hehe… Hay ah…

TSUP!!!

-Kikay