Archive for August, 2009

Just venting…

Friday, August 28th, 2009

My bestfriends are thousands of miles away… So I have nowhere to vent…

So I decided to let my thoughts out in my blog…

At the moment I feel like Im in a midlife crisis…

I mean Im still young but I have the experience of a fifty year old!!!

3 hubbies and 3 kids…

Don’t get me wrong… Im happy where I am right now..

But I cant say I’m content…

Actually I feel stuck…

For you people who don’t know me…

I’m used to working… Hard working.. most of all I’m used to getting a fat check every 2 weeks… and I’m used to working for an above average pay…

Now, I’m a 24 hr house mom… No paycheck and no life… And here I am starting over applying at low paying jobs…

Friends can you imagine me as a cashier??? or even a janitor??? food preparing?? (I AM DYING!!!)

Dreams… My dreams are getting cloudy… where just a year ago were at my fingertips…

When will I finally be content and happy??? Its either I’m content and lonely/sad… or I’m happy and overwhelmed with drama… wishing for something else…

Is there an in between????